WWJD?!?!

So there is this girl, right, and when I first met her someone else told me that they hated her and that she was a pain in the butt. I think that altered my opinion. Instead of thinking of her first as a person her faults just stood out. So maybe I haven't been too nice. I started off just poking fun. Then I felt really bad as I should have. After that I was just playing around and every once in a while I would ask her if she was all right and if anything I was saying was bothering her. She would always say no. Just recently someone said something to a teacher that painted me in a bad light and totally made me feel like crap. The girl I have been writing about stood up for me after the fact. It was a hard thing for her to do because of the kind of person she is. She considers me a friend. She has no problem with me. That made me realize how stupid I have been. I have been looking at the surface only. I have not been a friend really. It is weird how people see you. I want to be a friend, I want to be supportive of her. I want to think WWJD.

MORE!!!! TIS INSANE

Boy I love my icons. I was bored so I thought i would post. That penguin is sooo cool. He made me laugh. The wedding thing is......something i stumbled upon and made. Dude I want that dress. Anywho....I should go do something productive cuz my neck and back have been killing me all day. So luv y'all. Buhbyue now.

Boy i luv my iconz.

I tried to put these on last night but it wouldn't work so........there you go. Hahaha Big Fat greek wedding. funny funny movie. Those two little kids kissing is soooo cute. Kermit is coool. and don't u 4get it.

God...what in the world????

I keep lying to myself. I know it was the most real thing I have ever experienced in my life but,....what is God trying to teach me from this? No I am not talking about the "O my word" post. Okay so maybe I was trying to tell God my plans again but, why did my feelings seem so real? I don't know what is up anymore because I don't know if what I keep telling myself is true or not. I need to get out of the habit of lying to myself. What about him? This isn't centered around me. Goodness. It's not like we are in junior high anymore. We both have futures ahead of us. Nothing pointless in any relationships for me (plz God). Even though I am only in my 15th year of living (16 in november), the real world is one step ahead. No wait, I've been there. This coming up is adulthood. The real world I have seen. Make any comments you want on this blog. I am just putting my feelings down without getting into specifics. Kat, u should be able to figure out what I am talking about.

Just Iconz

O my word.

Before a thunderstorm came about and I was forced to shut off the computer I was about to say ......"I can feel the bile rising in my throat. I can feel the devil messing with my life. I can feel him laughing at me." Ok. Now. God is awesome. First let me explain. Lately I have feeling like crap because I have been going through a lot of crap. And a lot of crap. A lot of it had to do with the fact that I didn't feel like my relationship with Christ was what it was supposed to be. And it isn't. And because of all the stuff I have been going through, i have just wanted to go away somewhere away from people I know and be able to think and pray, alone. Then I was thinking that I couldn't wait until the revolve tour. That's when God worked in me. He just put on my heart the women who preach and minister to girls. I don't want to go into a secular profession. I realized that it was my flesh that was making me want to go to PBA and do music for the rest of my life. That is my problem. I haven't been looking to God for direction. I have been looking within me. Anyway, I felt like crying at first because I think I have known for a while that God didn't want me to sing for the rest of my life as a profession. I was upsetting because this has been what I wanted to do my whole life. But it isn't what God wants me to do. I feel God leading into ministry. I want to be a help to young girls who don't know what the heck is going on and i want to tell them that it's all right. God is never going to leave u. I don't know details yet and I want to talk with my pastor but, I want to be Gods vessel. I want to be the car that He is driving and I want the whole world to know that God is great. GOD IS GREAT!! I fi have to stay up all night and pray and read my Bible and pray and read my Bible, I will. I want everyone who reads this post to hold me to this. I want to be God's. All i needed to do was listen. Listen. God may be trying to tell u something. O my word. God is incredible. NO MORE SATAN. I am done having u rule my descisions. GOD IS MY LIFE.

Growing Up

Today I was trying on dresses that I might wear for my sweet 16 party. My friend brought in her quinciniera dress [spelling?] for me to try on. I couldn't put the dress on myself because it was a bit tight and it zippered up the side, my mom had to help. Let me put a picture in ur mind.....A white strapless puffy (and I mean PUFFY) dress. I go into my room, not being able to see all of the dress in my mirror, and suddenly a get this....feeling in the pit of my stomach. I couldn't figure out what it was at first. After a little while, i realized something.....I am growing up. Such a wierd thing to say but all day I have been wondering if I am "mature" enough for college. I don't know if I am yet but, it was just the weirdest feeling in the world. The thing was, in that dress, I looked my age. I looked like I was supposed to. I dunno. I just wanted to put this somewhere. No conclusion really but hey, this isn't an essay for school. :D

Jazz

O my word.....i m happy. Today I went to the NBC10 health fit expo. That wasn't the best part. I tried 15 times to throw a ping pong ball into a bowl with a fish in it. There were a lot of little bowls. On the last chance I had, I got the ball into the dish. YEY!!! I had tried sooooo hard. What I got was a coupon to bring to a certain pet store so i could get a Betta fish. It is sooooo pretty, which means it is a male. When I was trying to figure out a name for it, my mom kept saying girly names like Ruby and junk. I don't want my fish to be GAY. But ya know, I named him Jazz. He is so pretty. I wuv him. He so cute. He is red and he looks kinda purplish in a spot. :D I happy

Leaders

This icon actually got me thinking (i know, me thinking but what r u gonna do?). We as humans tend to follow a leader. And no I m not talking about the game. Leaders are human. If someone is put in a leadership position, they do deserve ur respect. If a leader falls, please don't let it crush u like a bug. Even though ur youth leader teaches u from the Bible, it doesn't mean u shouldn't take care of ur own walk with Christ. It is just that. Ur walk with Christ. But please no matter where u r, remember that everyone is human. No one is Jesus except Jesus.

Duff

I find a lot of buddy icons smashing Hilary Duff. Ok, i admit i luv it. But that is only bcuz I dont think she can sing very well. B4 u pre-teens start to throw tomatoes at me, let me explain. Her voice is twisted by computers. That is not her totally pure singing voice. I can't stand singers like that. Anyone coming from Disney tends to sound very computer like. Hilary is really a pain in the butt. Ok, i admit i loved Raise ur voice....but, not bcuz of her and not bcuz of her singing. I just don't know what else to say except. Cows are crazy monkeys. Luv the One who saved u!!

Birthdays

A friend of mines b'day is today. It got me thinking. We look forward to our birthdays for at most 365 days in a year. We get so excited then it is actually our birthday. I have had b'days that have been crap, I have had good birthdays, and I have had b'days where i don't even feel like it is my b'day. Birthdays are so much fun, but they don't last long enough. I'd love it if birthdays were more than one day. That is y it should be a requirement to have a party. So party on for ur birthday.

Random is my friend

Stupid things on-line make me happy. Dude Full House is awesome. It is like one of my fave shows. But i can only see it at someone elses house cuz i don't have cable. Well don't that beat all. STUART is awesome. That one is for u holly. No offense boyz but u can be stupid. Girls are not without our faults but u guys came first. Ur held to a higher standard. Girls should not wear an overload of makeup. Because people will think they look really bad when they r not wearing makeup. It can make a lot of difference. Just an opinion ladies.

See, i can be semi-serious. Mostly I like to be crazy. I luv finding buddy icons online but u can never see them so i posted them.....YEY. :P

First Entry

Seing as how I am clueless as to the whole blog thing is concerned, I must say cows fly in my duckpond. Seriously now....aw who m i kidding? Serious, me? Only when people are being stupid will I be serious. Which brings me to a question? Why are people so stupid??? I mean don't people think b4 they do things? Always think before u do something because u could affect someone who u didn't even think of. Wait..i m being serious. SO ladidadida. Jess, Beckie, Kat, and Margi are awesome friends. I will limit to 4 names bcuz there are too many people who i luv to death. Okay. I think my work here is done. Nanananananananana BATMAN.
God Bless