Tired

I am so tired. I am tired of it all. I see the people I love and then I can't sleep because I have them running through my mind. I am tired of watching reactions to see if they hurt. I am tired of not being ablt to have all the people I love around me. I hate it when I say things and they don't want to hear anything about it. How am I supposed to spend time with the people I love when being with them drives me down into the dirt. I can't not spend time with them because that drives me batty, and I miss them so much. At least I didn't dream about them last night. Usually when I dream about them, someone gets hurt...

Done

Done. I am done with high school. Praise the Lord and pass the ammunition. I took a failing grade on my last test because I couldn't stand to be there another day. That also pushed me to 3rd in my class. I hate that. I guess it doesn't really matter. But it kinda does to me, and I hope that things will change. I don't like third. I am glad Nathan is valedictorian though. Yipee for my brother. He even finished a few days before me. I wasn't too excited about finishing yesterday until my friends came around me and screamed in excitement and insisted we celebrate. It was girls gym day so all the girls came over and they screamed, and some made sure the boys downstairs heard them. :D A little girl was holding fast to me and whining about how she didn't want me to go. I will be going back to monitor, but I have to recover from working my butt of.
After school me, rubber ducky, and smurf went out to celebrate. We took a picture of us in front of a slow children sign. It was awesome. We then went to applebees. We had chip things with cheese and bacon on them, and a basket of fries. To top it off, we each had a bottle of root beer. We had bear, the stuffed animal thing, order the food. We laughed a whole lot. Our waitress was very understanding. Her name was C. Anyway, it was an exciting day.