Healing

I am back. Bethany is back. For months I have been a person who I don't know. And now I am getting back to who I was. I also don't become sad when I hear the song "because of you" I no longer feel what the song says. I am healing. Something that I have realized about healing is that if you are not around a person who has done u wrong, it is harder to forgive and to heal. But if you try, then the healing process will begin. There have been a couple of people who have been caring about me and talking about me. Love is filling my heart. Doubt is being removed. The healing has begun.

I babble. I babble with my heart.

I just realized that there is one person in my life who knows exactly what to say to me. She seems to know exactly what is going on and knows what to say to....fix me. I can't think of any other way to describe it. She has known me my whole life. It is really amazing, she has this uncanny ability to blow me out of the water, to lift my spirits, and to make life just seem better. I have to wait for her again. I could just say something to her, but I would not know what to say. I need her wisdom. But sometimes, you just don't know where to start or what to say. I have all this stuff bottled up inside. I wear a mask. I gotten so good at wearing the mask I don't even realize that I am wearing it. Do you know how weebles wobble but they dont fall down? Well, I am the opposite. Bethany falls, and just can't muster the strength to get up.

Deep is Dark Man.

HAHAHAHAHAHA I have not posted since last month. hehehe
I don't really feel like getting deep. Deep is depressing
Yeah so i have 11 lifepacs till i graduate. Maybe I will finish by late may.
I got my graduation cap and gown today. Yay. It is so kewl.
June 11 is graduation. 10:45 in the morning. Mark the calenders. There will be a party to follow....yay.
I have to start practicing a song for the talent show at school. I am not sure what to sing though. I just want to be able to go over it with my voice teacher.
Anywho, I must go and either read a book or do extra in my schoolwork.
Yippee