Ow ow ow ow

Ow my heart hurts. I don't know if I was right in what I did. I just looked at her picture. She is too sweet to have hurt me the way i think she did. Did I misread the e-mail. Have I know ruined our relationship? I hate my overactive imagination. The thing was, I felt hurt...and i was kinda angry and upset and i felt like dirt after I read her e-mail. And I was so hopeful she would come even though she said she wouldn't. So now I am disapointed. Now, something that is only partialy connected to this has made me feel so unwelcome at a place i grew up at. What has changed? Why do they treat us like dirt. They were our family for so long....I no longer look at it as we drive past....ow i hurt.