I got a job, but that is besides the point.

I was sitting in the cafeteria at VFCC at a long table, a guy sat down next to me...and surrounded by him, were a bunch of other males. I didn't look at them, I didn't speak to them, and I avoided their eyes. A little while later it was just girls sitting in those seats, I talked with them and laughed with them and junk...and u know....I realized something, I think I am shy around guys....I either don't look at them, or I become a leech...(explanation from a male friend)
"it means u try to get people's attention a way that's a little too mean for them to like... but u keep doing it and it gets on ur nerves quickly"
I cannot say that that wasn't a slap in the face, in fact it is very true. That is the way I am around most guys. I get insecure, and I hate that feeling. I grew up feeling so very insecure...it has been something I have been trying to overcome. I fear that this is not just me around guys...but also in my relationships with other people. It isn't me...I hate it. I have to find a way to accept my shy side...and let it be. ha, methinks that is funny. I really want to show God's love in all that I do. I'm finding it kinda difficult.